St Mary's Class of 2002

 

Just in case if you can't find me, I'm that retarded looking kid sitting in the middle with my eyes closed while everyone else is laughing and having fun. 

This made me laugh out loud when I saw it. I was just cleaning my room, and there it was - my Year 6 book. But other than being amusing, not much has changed.

While everyone is busy having fun, I'm too worried about everyone else's happiness. I didn't mind so much when I was little. I liked making other people happy. And everything was simpler then.

But I have been selfish too.

I went to visit my grandparents the other for the first time in the last couple of months. I went to the bathroom and sitting in the bath tub was a light blue bucket. I'm such an emotional freak, but I started tearing up at the sight of it. It just brought back so many memories - I used to come home to that same house after a 30 degree day at school, sit in the bath tub, and pour freezing cold water all over myself with that bucket. 

Simple pleasures.

So sometimes I think how the fuck did I get here? How did everything get so messed up?

But at the end of the day, I'm probably just worrying too much. The fact of the matter is, I am here. It's what I'm going to do next about it that counts.

"I know you Naomi. I know you're lonely. I think you need someone to want you... Well, I do want you.  

So, be brave
and want me back." - Skins

These are the things, the things we lost in the fire fire

Do you understand that we'll never be the same again?
Do you understand that we'll never be the same again?
The future's in our eyes and we will never be the same again
The future's in our eyes and we will never be the same again

I was the match and you were the rock
Maybe we started this fire
We sat apart and watched
All we had burned on the pyre



That these are the days that bind you together, forever And these little things define you forever, forever
All this bad blood here, won't you let it dry? It's been cold for years, won't you let it lie?
And I don't wanna hear about the bad blood anymore



Yeah, a shitload of Bastille. Check out the new album "Bad Blood".
x.

Dubbo with Emily times 2

Last weekend I packed my bags, vacuumed my car, loaded up on junk food, and set off with my girlfriend (another Emily) to Dubbo for the Triple J One Night Stand concert.

Lineup: Peoples Palace, Seth Sentry, Ball Park Music, The Rubens, Flume.

Lez be honest. I only knew Flume, and I went just for Flume.

Dubbo was completely booked out so we stayed in a neighbouring town called Wellington, or as the locals call it, "Wello". Sydney to Wello was about 6 hours. Wello to Dubbo was about 40minutes (without traffic).

This road trip was a lot of things, but if I were to choose just one word, it would be RANDOM.

I mean really, who goes out into rural Australia? No one! And to top it off, our "quiet" Friday night turned into a drunken fiasco filled with questions such as "do any other Asians live here?".

But gotta say, I really fucking love Australia. I love the people and our sense of mateship. Wello was more than hospitable and Dubbo was just as good!

Here are some photos and a promo vid so you all know what you missed out on. It was only a 6 hour drive. You have no excuse. (Sarcasm)











I'm actually quite impressed with that video. Didn't even see the onesies from where we were standing... hm.

Thank you to Em for sharing the long drive and putting up with me for a whole weekend. You are an amazing friend and I am so glad to have you in my life. Luff yoo.

My little red dot

Saw this on an old high school friend's Facebook status: "An overwhelmingly painful event in your life right now will one day be part of your much larger past and not nearly as significant as it seems" -- Marc and Angel Hack Life

Amen 100%.

Here's to easier days, and looking back and laughing at it all.

The sun is shining everyday

I don't think I've ever held a grudge as long as this.

There is always good to see in people.

So I'm letting it go & I'm continuing on...

As a person, I guess you could say I'm sometimes too forgiving. I'm a little naive. But I am not who I was 2 years ago. I look back and I can see the miles I've made. Like I said before, being nice isn't synonymous with stupidity or weakness.

My personality only becomes a problem if the people who I love abuse it. Otherwise, I'm A-OKAY. Better than a-okay. I know I'm a little different to most. But I hope that's why the people I surround myself with value me.

Insecurities are like little parasites, trying to get under my skin. And for my whole life I will probably be fighting them off.

But all I need to do is remember my worth. I just need to think about why we are still here, why you are still here...... and it's all schweeeeeet!

:) It's going to be a good year.

Coldplay - Fix You

But still, I always go

Cave Paintings at Chauvet

There is a cave, hidden in secret. Within it's chambers is one single fire. The fire burns and wanes, casting shadows and light on the earthy walls.

I climb to the cave every day. 

The path is never the same. At times the way is steep, and I lose my way. On these days the rain will pour, and I feel her with me. She follows me silently without showing her face. But I know she is there. I try to shake her. I run through the trees and the branches hoping that she will lose me. On these days I carry anger with me.

Other times, the way is easier. I am never sure of what the path will be. The path is unpredictable, and it cannot be read. But still, I always go. 

I go because the fire cannot burn on it's own.

- ELAN

Bedroom Renovations Part I

Renovating my room has been on my to-do list for about three years now. I don't think I ever really had much of a choice to begin with. Pretty sure my dad allocated my room purely because it was already pink! And over the years, my walls have seen it's fair share of punk emo posters, artwork, and photo frames.

Pretty sure I'd outgrown the colour (and my bed) a good few years ago.

So I manned up... and after many hours researching and racking my brain for some kind of colour palette, I went got it! All thanks to a special little elf :) Thank you Mr. Elf!

This post is a "work-in-progress" post. There is still lots to be done - furniture, decoration, lighting... etc. So there will be more photos later!

This is what my room looked like before: (I will post up more angles in my final post).





Sticking on the wallpaper:

I thought wallpaper would be easiest part - boy was I wrong. Or maybe I'm just retarded, and everyone else finds it easy?

I bought my wallpaper from Bunnings Warehouse, Milperra. The texture was lovely, and about the right colour I wanted. One roll is supposed to cover about 5m squared and comes at $49.95 a roll. My feature wall was about 9.2m squared in total. So I bought two rolls.

This was my first mistake. I didn't factor in the wasted segments that would be cut out when trying to match up the pattern. Eventually had to go back to Bunnings to get another roll.

Then, watched this video from Masters Home Improvement. The video advises you to start from the middle. Um no. My second mistake - listening to this stupid video. Definitely always start from the corner. Makes your life a lot easier.

In hindsight, I should have also painted the feature wall white first.

After about 5 hours in total of pasting, scraping and cutting... of frustration and exhaustion...



Finally done! :)

You can see from the photos that it's not 100% perfect. But it will definitely do! You can't really notice it too much, and for all the effort I put in... I'm pretty darn happy!

It's amazing how changing something as simple as colour can make such a difference. I love my room so much more. I look forward to coming home to it everyday and seeing how fresh it looks compared to before.

My stuff is everywhere and I need to get a bigger bed. Can't wait until it's completely done!

See if you can spot my spoilt dog in the picture below...





Watch this space.

x.